I feel like I am broken. I haven’t felt excited about anything that I am working on. The things that would normally bring me joy were bringing me nothing.
Early, this year there was a lot of excitement and my lot of energy. I was doing a lot of my goals and getting a lot of things done. I labeled them as experiments as I way to make me feel ok about thing sucking.
But, suddenly I stopped. I stopped doing the things that brought me joy. I stopped making time for the activities that felt like I was moving things in the right direction. I stopped making time for the things that gave me hope.
It didn’t happen overnight. But slowly, the mindset started to shift to “I will do that tomorrow.” But, tomorrow might not always come. My biggest fear is regret.