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Why Am I So Afraid
- John Siwicki
I wanted to do something that was going to break up my schedule. I can be a very habit and schedule based person so I needed to do something that was just different.
I made a playlist of songs that I loved when I was in my 20s. Some of these songs are 15 years old which baffled me. Then, I just want to a certain spot and put my phone on airplane mode.
There is a certain place that I like to take a walk. There is hardly ever any people and it I find it be a place where I can think clearly.
I have been feeling like I haven’t been right over the last few weeks. Something was just off and I couldn’t figure it out. Walking around this lake surrounded by beautiful trees and the faint sound of traffic. I couldn’t see anyone from the spot I was sitting at.
I grabbed my notebook and started writing. I always do best when I don’t think and start writing.
I wrote down two things.
“Stop being afraid” and “there is still time.”